Hey Kate! I had no clue you were blogging! I just saw a comment on Lance's blog and followed the link, and ended up here. Exciting stuff! Thanks for your honesty in what you write. Obviously I appreciate that. And what a great place to be in: to be needy! To be needy is not a problem, as long as we direct our neediness towards God who is the one who can fulfill our deepest needs. I love two verses from the Old Testament that talk about this position of not knowing (anything?) and needing God (in all possible ways): all of Psalm 40 is excellent and talks a lot about what happens when God lifts us up and reveals more to us of who we are in him. Then we get "a new song", and we're changed and ruined for the ordinary. I have seen that in your life too! But the end of the Psalm is interesting. Even after being changed and having thanked God for that, David still arrives at this conclusion: "Yet I am poor and needy, may the Lord think of me". I love that: poor and needy, Christ calls it poor in spirit. Those are the ones who are ready to admit their neediness, and those are the ones God has promised to satisfy! The other verse is from 2. Chronicles 20:12 "we do not know what to do, but we are looking to You for help". I acknowledge that truth on a weekly basis at least. And that's the place to be. To be needy, helpless, broken and ready to accept God's gifts of joy, peace, rest, and help when he sees fit. And I'm sure that as you seek God and admit your neediness for him, he'll give you the desires of your heart in whatever way he sees fit!

Just thought I wanted to write this.

Blessings, Torben - www.abrokencup.wordpress.com