i need to start caring again about me. and not about what others are thinking of me. i miss my confidence and understanding in God.

things i want to start doing again:

1. taking photographs just for the fun of it. and really thinking about the shot and the enjoyment, not what people will think.

2. work out. i miss it so much.

...i'm lost...

...i've wandered into the woods and although it looks familiar i'm not really sure where i am. i think i've walked in circles but instead of seeking wisdom to find my way out...i've sat down. I now sit playing with the grassy forest floor. I know i shouldn't be here, although its momentarily comfortable that will change and i'll regret this time. However, right now i'm content and i dont want to try. so i curl up, and fall asleep on the cool damp earth.....